It’s the smell that hits
first, dank and permeable, the kind of smell that unsettles you, that seeps
into your clothes and your pores, warning that things aren’t right. At least
that’s what it was for my friend Germaine and I on Monday as we turned the
corner from Santa Fe Avenue onto SW 15th street, in Moore, Oklahoma, our Zone 1
assignment where we’d spend the next few hours helping with tornado clean-up.
Not that there’s much to clean up, although there is, blocks upon infinite
blocks of debris, the remnants of lives shattered as just one week prior an F5
tornado waged its wrath upon a 17-mile swath of now-barren landscape.
Visually, I’d become
inured to it, at least from a distance. Photos from friends and in the
newspaper, eye-witness accounts in the media and on the internet helped brace
me for the enormity of it all. But then stepping off that bus and smelling it;
smelling made it real.
I didn’t expect the
smell, a fetid cocktail of rotting drywall, rain-soaked carpet and churned-up
plywood. It was deep and heady, laden with the musk of dampened dust, both sour
and earthy in one inhale -- like scavenging through grandma’s attic where
years of neglect have settled, caking every surface.
When we got to the site
at 1017 SW 15th, this band of twenty or so strangers, we really didn’t know
what to do. We had no individual assignments, just shovels, gloves, dust masks
and a willingness to dig in and make what progress we could. But somehow the
rubble told us what to do, and we fell into an instinctive rhythm: big pieces
first, then medium-sized things like shingles and chunks of insulation. Pieces
then turned into morsels, which we dug up by the shovelful, hoping that with
each layer uncovered, we might find something the family valued. We were ants
on a hill, marching, digging, clearing, moving, never really stopping to talk
or rest, as piece-by-piece and shovel-by-shovel we slowly dug down to the
floor.
Large debris, such as
walls and portions of house frames, were carried out with quiet precision,
flanked on each side by volunteers. Like pallbearers at a funeral, they moved
with purpose, striding gingerly from where the house once stood to the growing
mound of detritus along the curb.
We identified rooms
based on what was found there: the kitchen (tupperware and a Bundt pan), a
bedroom (a comforter, pillow and waterbed still in tact), the living room (a
maroon faux velvet La-Z-Boy and TV), the bathroom (toilet, still bolted to the
floor and buried under several feet of debris). As we dug, the family’s story
emerged. Cards from two versions of Trivial Pursuit - 80s and Silver
Screen - were strewn about almost every corner of the site. There were
cancelled checks from 1980 from when the family lived in Hawaii. We found
random rolls of Christmas wrapping paper, a Barbie Doll, its hair still
attached to the original packaging, a cut glass dish, dirty but undamaged,
men’s 36” x 30” trousers still with the tags on, a Harry Potter book
(Half-Blood Prince, to be exact), toiletries, and a Woman’s Day magazine from
1992.
Our conversations were
minimal, “Excuse me,” “I’m sorry,” “Thank you,” “Do we have any wire-cutters?”
For the most part we worked quietly, lost in a reverent silence, creating our
own syncopated cadence of scraping shovels and the clatter-clap of wood being
thrown onto the pile. From time to time, our song was punctuated by the
squelching beep of a tow truck as it removed damaged cars from the street. But
there were no other sounds: no birds singing or dogs barking at squirrels, no radios
blaring as cars passed by, no children playing in yards. No life.
.
What personal items we
found were amassed onto what turned out to be the garage floor, awaiting their
owners’ return. All other debris was thrown atop mountainous piles along
the curb where it will remain until hauled off by front-end loaders a few weeks
from now. We celebrated minor victories: finding a box of new clothing
virtually untouched, ladies’ jewelry found deep amid crumbled drywall near the
bedroom area, a torn photo or two and silverware, mud-caked but still intact.
We had no idea if the items we were collecting even belonged to the family, or
to those from the family next door, or the next street
over, or from a half a mile away. The monster tornado, which churned through the
area with wind speeds topping 200 MPH, pulverized everything in its path,
mixing and blending houses and their belongings into a dense soup of hardwood
and brick.
One reporter on the
ground, upon first seeing the damage after the storm passed, said it looked
like what you’d imagine if you put a house into a blender, turned it on high,
and let it go. Homes and businesses were ground into crumbs, cars shred to
ribbons of steel that were then wrapped around trees like some macabre holiday
tinsel. The few trees remaining were stripped of their canopies and bark, and
now stand naked but no less proud, their sharpened branches reaching heavenward
like ghostly cathedral spires, monuments to the power of nature and the
unknown.
Our goal, such as we had
one, was to unearth a shadow box of military medals belonging to the
homeowners. Fitting that on Memorial Day we would focus our efforts on the home
of a veteran. Whether by happenstance or design, it gave more meaning to our
task knowing that we were serving someone who had once served us.
Unfortunately, by the time we left, we hadn’t found the beloved box. We’re
hoping it may still be unearthed somewhere, and that whoever finds it will post
photos of the medals to one of the online communities for mementos of its kind.
The task ahead seems
daunting at best and recovery will take months if not years. The house we
worked on was but one of thousands, and while we felt our progress was mighty,
its contribution to the overall effort seemed miniscule.
After turning onto my
own street to arrive home that afternoon, I drove around the block, absorbing
everything I saw. I wondered if SW 15th Street, before the killer storm,
bloomed with the same idyllic air as my own street a mere twenty-five miles
away. Were its lawns freshly mowed? Did spring annuals dot the flower beds with
pink and purple? Were children playing out front, guarded by the houses that
stood brick-and-mortar tall? It dawned on me that with a shift in the jet
stream, or a break in the dry line, the house that brought together this band
of twenty or so strangers - not just Oklahomans, but people from Austin and
Denton and Kansas and Oregon - could have been my own. And then I wondered,
would it have smelled the same?(copyright - jlmcommunications)
“Your own self at your very best all of the time.”
There was never a time when Patty was too busy to talk, to help, to counsel, to love and to care. I knew if I could just talk to Patty, the answer to my question would come….not directly, of course, but from her wise questions and sincere listening and her spoken and sometimes unspoken words moving me to the right answer.
